ladies and gents, its been too long since i've been here. i've let things go for far too long. i'm back and i'm here to stay. i've picked up on some bad eating habits, they need to change starting tonight.


-to prove my point, i'm going running first thing tomorrow morning. i hate running, actually i despise it. my lungs burn, i can't breath..i guess that shows you how out of shape i am. anyways, do any of you have any tips that will help me get through this run? awesome workout playlists, tips on not getting tired, advice..anything?

So, I'm just posting quickly before I get to school. I decided I'm going to do a mixture of eating healthy and restricting today. I know thats a weird combo but whatever. I'm gonna try and eat as healthy as I can with no snacks between meals. If I can't find something healthy then I just won't eat. Understand? I think this will work well for me.

Like I said in my previous post, I've been fasting today along with tomorrow. I've been slacking so I need this to prove to myself I have SOME self control.

I almost broke today, I was looking forward to coming home and eating a nice snack before I realized I couldn't. And yet I still almost broke. Luckily, the carpenter was here working on my bathroom that isn't too far from the kitchen and was making a mess of the area. So, luckily I didn't eat. This is what I need tips for. What do you do when your in the car or coming home from school..anything. When you can't get on the computer and look at thinspo. What do you do to remind yourself not to eat? What do you do to stay strong?

Its freezing out today, but I'm still gonna go for a walk, I need to. I'll probably go walk by my old middle school which a little less than a mile away. I've already walked for about 20 minutes during gym. But, I need more. I promised myself I would exercise more in my free time. So I need to keep that up.


Outtake:
114 minutes of walking [-80 -534]
6hrs of attending class [-799]
5 mins of light cleaning [-15]
10 mins of studying [-22]
10 minutes of calisthenics [-99]
TOTAL:1268 1348 1370 1469 so far
TBA

Update: So, I recently finished walking. I'm still absolutely freezing, but I feel good. When I was finished walking I wanted nothing more than to eat something. And the carpenter was gone? So what was stopping me? I decided against it. I want to be strong. I want to prove to everyone, especially myself that I can do this. Instead of getting something to eat I grabbed a nice tall glass of water. I've been trying to drink the full 8 glasses lately but today wasn't so successful, so far I've only had 3. I need to fit more in between classes and such.

Times To Drink Water (8 Glasses)
-it seems lame but if I plan out when I'm going to drink it, then I will.
1) Before School
2) During Lunch
3) After school
4) Between lunch and dinner
5) Dinner
6) After Dinner
7) Before I sleep
-thats seven, and its a lot better than the 3 I've gotten in so far today.

UPDATE: I finished with my 24 hours. So, I'm going to eat something small. Luckily, we have like no food in my house so I can't binge or anything. I'll probably eat some noodles or something.
Well, turns out my sister made dinner. Some pork tender loin, broccoli, and biscuits. It was really good, and pretty healthy.
pork loin [204 cals]
broccoli [60 cals]
biscut [?]

I basically give up on myself. I'm not losing this weight. I can't stick to my diet. I eat all that I want then I end up regretting it later. It pisses me off but I just can't stop. I'm fasting for 48 hours. But I need help. I need tips to stay away from food. What works for you guys? Obviously, what I'm doing now isn't working. Do you know any good tips? Or where I can find some?



Okay, so I was on a thinspo/helpsite when I read an article about exercise. I realize I'm hardly getting any exercise at all. I keep thinking that I have no free time, but really I do. I spend a good few hours on the computer that I could spend exercising. I'm going to get up 20 minutes earlier than normal and go running on the treadmill. Its still to cold in the mornings to go running outside like I would like, but the treadmill should be fine. Do you guys have any workout music you suggest?